Author: optimisticduelist

callmearcturus:

So like. 

“dirkjake is bad and unhealthy”

That’s sure a statement. It really bothers me deeply. The level to which its dismissive and coldhearted really just.

Dirk and Jake were two teenagers who were struggling with their emerging sexualities. They were two people who lived alone for the vast majority of their lives. Their entry into the game was their first significant interactions with people, for Jake in most of his life, for Dirk in his entire life.

And they were bad at it. Holy shit, what a novel concept. A massive, stressful part of your life happens, and you don’t handle it with calm. You’re in a game out to kill you with monsters and traps, and you don’t nail it at every turn. You fumble through your new life, overloaded with new situations you could never hope to prepare for, and it doesn’t go well.

“bad and unhealthy.”

What really… fucks with me. What gets me hard, is that I’ve been in Dirk Strider’s shoes. I have done things that I’ll never be fully forgiven for, some real and some made up by my brain, but like Dirk, I want to be better. I think at my core there is a toxicity that I might never be able to pull out from the roots, but I’m fucking trying.

And I know so many people who resonate hard with Jake’s character, who have walked his path and made his mistakes, who are honestly sometimes so fucking relieved to see themselves reflected with such fidelity.

When people take these complicated characters who made mistakes, and they just write off their futures like that, they say “these two people cannot be together because there was a time when it was bad,”

the little voice in the back of my head, the one that thinks I can’t be redeemed no matter how much I try, gets louder.

I need there to be hope for the people who make mistakes. I need there to be forgiveness in the world. I need there to be the understanding that, dude, the person you were when you were 13 is not who you are at 16 or at even fucking 18.

And maybe that forgiveness is not going to come from you in particular, but the fact you put out these broad stroke statements out to the people who will extend that hopefulness like they should be ashamed of themselves, that’s sick.

This entire culture of “this person did something I think is bad, so they get written off,” that’s damaging. Especially with characters like Dirk and Jake because, y’all, people relate to these characters. They have lived similar traumas and hurts. They have hurt people in similar ways. 

And they’re just… hopeless, right? They’re bad. They’re unhealthy, huh? And the book closes and that is the end. Nothing happens next.

That’s fucked up. And frankly, the people who do that, who the hell are you to arbitrate that? And in your life, when you fuck up in a big way, when you hurt people, do you also become damaged goods that can never be better?

What the hell does that say about us all?

You know who else is unhealthy and bad? Terezi. Karkat. Dave. Jane. Roxy. Vriska. Rose.

If you are going to say the past missteps in a relationship make it and the people involved irredeemable, then there are very few people not sullied by that broad stroke.

Please for the love of god, stop shaming people for a ship, especially to this particular hopeless, unsympathetic tune. Because man. Think about how much you’ve changed in the time between when you made a mistake and now. Think of every person who gave you that chance and who cared about you since then. Were they wrong?

I don’t think so.

You ve played the friendsim What are your thoughts about Ardata and classpect? Im trying to figure it out but I can’t think of more than that she’s Definitely Not comfortable with the light aspect what do you think?

my current guess is that shes a witch of mind–the familiar being her viewers–but that could be roleplay or, frankly, just me/my friends reading too much into it because her text feels almost designed to be hard to classpect. there’s also some aspects of her personality that vibe with Sylph for me, so that could be her true class? idek.

she mostly seems to lack the keywords and motifs that usually make characters so clear, like diemen for example. Or maybe i’m just worse at picking out those motifs for some classes. can’t really tell.

the spotlight definitely seems to weigh heavily on her, and that could def be the influence of the Light aspect via the blue sign caste. I’m not quite sure there since again, i dont super have a read on her classpect. 

but i’m guessing shes a Mind player just judging by the 3 motif and her concern with…i’ll say false appearances? Holding to a persona?

She changes the mspa reader right out the gate, forcing them to agree with her abusive philosophy to please her, and thats basically the choice at the heart of their dynamic throughout. so thats what i’m going off, insofar as i’m willing to speculate.

but to be honest, i’m not even sure these versions of the characters will necessarily line up with the versions in hiveswap. it seems incredibly likely to me that they will, which means i am inclined to consider these versions for class purposes, but ill feel a lot more confident one way or another after we get to know some more trolls this way.

Ardata feels too opaque to really say,
by design, I think.

honestly i was a little shocked for a second about how dark friendsim got but then i just started laughing and couldn’t stop. that was some wonderful homestuck weirdness and i’m looking forward to where else they go with it from here!

yeah pretty much same. maybe the biggest surprise for me is, i wasnt expecting to actually get caught up in the dating sim aspect. but somehow in between the manslaughter and sausage jokes, diemen kinda worked for me, too. swoon!

Would you ever examine the music of Homestuck. Like how it relates to characters or something like that or how it’s used. Like how Dirk uses Time on my Side, a theme intended for Dave, in [S] Prince: Rise Up and how it further conveys how much Dirk emulates various qualities from Dave.

maybe, where its relevant thematically like with Time on my Side, yeah. Main thing with music is i dont really know any music theory or anything so i would feel like im out of my depth even more than i usually do 

so favourite homestuck ship?

i like all the canon ships in the text of homestuck itself pretty much equally? davekat, vrisrezi, roxycallie, dirkjake, rosemary, javepeta–all of them own

i have a particular fondness for dirkjake (should be obvious if you follow this blog lol), because it hits some particularly personal notes for me. but they’re all p great.

I also like to think about john or jane in some of those ships, too (johnrezi or johnvrisrezi in different ways, janeroxycallie, johnroxy, all good examples)

im kinda a laissez faire multishipper by default, so ive got all sorts of other ships i think are cute even if i find them less interesting.

youareagoodperson:

youareagoodperson:

Honestly people who refuse to ship m/f ships because they’re “straight” or whatever are so fucking boring, like I don’t ship people based on gender, I ship based on chemistry. Shipping isn’t activism, you don’t get woke points for having the most “progressive” ship like this is supposed to be fun so fuck off with your fandom policing and get a life.

Anyway I wrote this as a bi woman who is tired of being policed on what ships she can support as a “good bi” and also as someone who is tired of all m/f relationships being labeled as straight. I like to have a variety of ships, and shockingly, not every gay ship appeals to me more than a m/f ship.