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Did you ever end up recovering from that shit show last year that like killed your patreon? Also what even was it that happened? I just remember your money going done by like half and everyone yelling.

kyleehenke:

i really don’t want to get into it. but! here i go anyway, because i’m so tired of keeping quiet, i’m so tired of suffering in silence for fear if stirring shit back up, so here the fuck goes anyway. multiple times now i’ve had all my hard work ruined by ridiculously fucking false accusations that i’m supposedly a pedophile despite NO proof of it. i’ve had my shit wrecked by “guilt by association” situations, too, where i was supposedly responsible for the mistakes of a friend, shit i wasn’t even AWARE of. all it took was a small loud group of people who decided they wanted to destroy me, and they absolutely accomplished that.

being accused of being dangerous to my fanbase, or even my baby nephew and having people believe it without question (because so many folks take callout posts at face value without fact checking), crushed my fucking soul. i lost 75% of my monthly income and had to go back to relying on my parents for financial support. i’ll be straight up honest. when i took down all my social media last winter, it was because i deadass almost killed myself. i had a plan and everything. cops showed up. it got ugly.

i’m back from that brink, i have a wonderful support system, therapy and medication, but i never fully bounced back after that.

it’s almost a blessing i got riddled with back and wrist injuries and had surgery so that i’ve been forced to take time off from content creating and just take care of myself, it may have saved my life. but that doesn’t mean i don’t have a lot of fears and hangups about what to do from here, because i just don’t know. i’m not big enough online to stay afloat if someone decides to take a big loud shit on my reputation. i’m not safe, i’ve been doxxed, people know my name and address, and the risk vs reward ratio for content making is so skewed anymore that i have lost almost all of my passion to make. just. anything, really. why bother, if anyone can destroy everything that gives my life meaning in a single day?

i’ve stopped animating entirely, drawing became a chore long ago, my creative fire was completely snuffed. i don’t know how to come back, i’m honestly just taking it one day at a time because it’s all i CAN do to function. it’s an ongoing struggle, and will continue to be as long as the status quo remains. something’s got to give, but you can’t critique callout culture on tumblr without someone accusing you of being an apologist for this or that, so i flat out stopped trying. it’s not a fight i can win. you have no idea how badly i want to fade off into obscurity and disappear, take up a different alias and start over, but i can’t. i need to make a living. i’m in too deep. i put 15 years of hard work into building the viewership i have and establishing my presence on social media.

i’m sad and scared every single day. i don’t WANT to give up, because giving up is as good as a death sentence on my happiness. i don’t plan on quitting, not anymore. but fucking hell, can you blame me for feeling like it’s all kind of pointless? my future, which once seemed all figured out, is now a huge question mark. i’ll have to wait and see now, i’ll have to re-evaluate what it means to be a creator, and rediscover why i loved making art in the first place.

all i can ask of people is to take everything you read online with a grain of salt. fact check, be a critical thinker, and make your own conclusions. most of all, realize that lives are literally at stake. falsely calling people out is not a fucking game. we have to stop scaring content creators out of creating. we have to be better.

Jesus, I had no idea, Kylee 😦

If any of ya’ll are wondering why I find callout/purity culture fucking insipid and vile, well, here’s what your “progressive action” produces. Less happiness, less content, less people following their dreams and connecting to each other online, when we need all of those things now more than ever.

I don’t know what to say. You’re in my thoughts.

kulugary

 

Normally I’d laugh along but no. I really can’t….

I think that Rose parallels much more of Meenah (on Beforus) than Vriska. Running away from their Right to Rule, eventually Commanding and Army to Fight the Authority, and the strong Life themes tied to Rose. Imo just not all messy, morally dubious characters fit in the Vriska mold 😦

i mean fair, if we get right down to it i kind of agree, but someone Being A Meenah is not a meme the way someone Being A Vriska is. i just think theres a kernel of truth to the idea from a discourse/general character arc themes perspective, i’m not really trying to make an all-encompassing case here

Normally I’d laugh along but no. I really can’t. Imagine Rose Quartz shattering someone’s legs and then demanding that they apologize to her for no longer being able to walk. Vriska is a sociopathic bully. Rose Quartz, while probably very SELFISH, consciously made a choice to never kill anyone, to celebrate life, and to defend the rights of the downtrodden rather than add to their suffering..

ectoflowermaid:

revolutionaryduelist:

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I kinda love the comparison to Vriska in the sense that I sort of see their character arcs running opposite to each other? (This is all spoiler free)

Like, when we are introduced to Vriska she’s shown to be just this awful person with little to no redeeming qualities, who seemingly doesn’t care for anyone but herself and will do whatever it takes to achieve her means. As Vriska’s arc continues, she’s shown to have much more complex feelings and relationships and actually does care for and have the capacity to connect with people, and though she has done some bad stuff, she eventually reaches a moral grey area.

Whereas with Rose Quartz, she’s first shown to be the Perfect Being; Rose can essentially do no wrong. We first see her as this martyred figure up on a pedestal who was endlessly kind and patient and curious and forgiving, when in reality, she is manipulative, careless with those around her, and doesn’t understand the gravity of her actions, nor are we shown her taking responsibility for the consequences of said actions. Rose is taken down from the pedestal and shown to be more complex than this ideal martyr, and eventually reaches the same moral grey area as Vriska, but coming from the complete opposite end.

Sorry to jump in I just really liked the comparison!!

I agree completely, personally. I dig this a lot, thanks!

Normally I’d laugh along but no. I really can’t. Imagine Rose Quartz shattering someone’s legs and then demanding that they apologize to her for no longer being able to walk. Vriska is a sociopathic bully. Rose Quartz, while probably very SELFISH, consciously made a choice to never kill anyone, to celebrate life, and to defend the rights of the downtrodden rather than add to their suffering..

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Rose Quartz is also pink diamond, which means she’s the same as the callous girl Stevonnie dreamed about wanting a colony for her own like it was a plaything.

Rose Quartz still initially treated Greg kinda like something to keep in a zoo even after millenia of loving humans, and it never occured to her to remove the VICIOUS command she gave pearl across millennia even AFTER the war was over and she had ample opportunity to face the truth and talk things out, which is every BIT as cruel as crippling tavros even if it was more careless than thoughtless.

She left Pearl alone to help raise Steven without doing so on her whim, leaving Pearl to deal not just with the grief but also with the silence of never being able to tell her friends or STEVEN the truth. Forcing her to be alone with Rose’s lie. Forever.

And i’m not really here for reducing Vriska’s complexity like this, either, because you’re throwing (Vriska) down the same hole. Yeah, Vriska was like that initially, but the entire point of (Vriska)’s character is that she has the potential to grow and change, and (Vriska) actually did that and ended up having the personal connection Vriska wants but can’t conciously face.

The point of the Pink Diamond reveal is that Rose Quartz was complicated and messy and deeply hurt people she cares about even if she was trying to do the right thing.

It’s a message of redemption and hope, that even the worst people can put in the effort to grow and change and do good for the world, even in their imperfection. That’s exactly what Vriska’s arc is about, too. I made the joke not because it’s laughable, but because its true. Sorry if you don’t agree, but that’s genuinely how I see it.

just finished going through vol. 3 with a couple patrons

jesus christ, skylla’s path was the best written and most painful yet.

this is what ive been talking about for months, that hiveswap would explorethe way alternia just hurts everybody, by design.

but it feels weird to really be experiencing it. kinda surreal, after so long of imagining alternia as an abstract idea, a hypothetical suffering. this makes it real and its…god. the last couple days have already been tough on me in some uh. similar ways, so. i’m a bit shaken.

poor skylla. i’d die for her. i hope hiveswap leads her somewhere that she can be happy, because god she deserves it