My first language is English-I just didn’t learn it through traditional channels, exactly. I had some school assistance but the bulk of my english was self taught. My ‘lingua franca’, so to speak, is Spanish, in that thats what my family speaks and what I first learned growing up. But I’m considerably less proficient at Spanish than English, somewhat sadly.

I’d realized I didn’t fit into the whole Catholic worldview before I’d hit 10, what with my weird feelings about boys and stuff, + a really toxic home life and stuff and…i needed to escape. pretty much the way I coped w/ my  life was by throwing myself into stories, books, video games, etc.

That’s how I learned, and how I survived in the first place.

My first professionally published writing ever was on this subject, actually, focusing on my experience with Earthbound. I recommend any Homestuck read that piece tbh, not because my writing is particularly special but because I think I managed to convey something special about Earthbound’s artistic spirit that is absolutely core to the legacy Homestuck seeks to inherit.

trigger warning for discussions of depression, abuse and csa though.
fair warning.

Too many people view Homestuck as a cynical, almost cruel tale with a mean/callous kind of comedy, written by a “troll” author. I think that understanding fundamentally breaks any attempt at understanding the story because its the exact opposite of the roots Homestuck points to in its very name.

This wasnt about homestuck but everything about me is about homestuck and the way the cultural legacy that produced it has defined and changed me over time.

Earthbound, utena, mother 3, boktai, megaman, the tales of series, all the way to more modern works like Homestuck, Undertale, Gravity Falls & Steven universe–and so many other stories than i can name…i’m made of those stories, and if i’m beholden to any particular cultural thread its what i found in them.  

And I guess ive just been Through Some Shit this week and kinda need to talk.
Been through some serious changes that have been much needed for a long time, and this proved to be a good way to center myself and remind myself what I like doing and why i think it matters.

I was going to save the new icon for the big re-brand event, but screw it, you guys on Tumblr and Discord get a preview over the youtube crowd I guess. I needed to do someting to mark this event in my life–to commemorate a change, i suppose. Consider it a small taste of things to come.

By the way, on that note, I’m an Heir now. Thanks for giving me the opportunity to ramble a bit, it helped me out. Have a great day, and keep rising.